Interesting Fruit

I have come to the conclusion that I am ruined. I think I am now learning a new definition of what it means to be ruined for the Lord. I have gotten wrecked and ruined on different levels at different times and I think I just underwent another one.

I am done hearing information. I want revelation. I am done having meetings. I want encounters. For example, tonight I was at the Flood and someone was doing the teaching portion. It was really good. Lots of really good points and lots of information. It was all right. But there was no revelation of it. I just heard words that I already know. Nothing was revealed to me. Information goes into my brains and revelation changes my life.

So the question then goes is revelation dependent on me or the person talking? I think the answer is yes.

Yes because I need to be disciplined to find the Glory of God in even the most feeble attempts to do His work. And yes because the person delivering the Gospel must do so with a spirit of revelation and impartation or else it is just wind. I can line up a bunch of people who really know the scriptures and deliver a great sounding sermon and each one of them is a witch or a new-ager. Then I can line up a bunch of people who are raising the dead, leading thousands to Christ, seeing remarkable healings on a regular basis and they are illiterate, have hardly seen the Bible and have no idea that there is something called "tongues" out there. Now that puts a stick in the spokes.

I chuckle all the time because I talk with a lot of "Pentecostals" who are hard liners on tongues being the initial evidence of being filled with the Holy Spirit. I was filled with the Holy Spirit in dramatic fashion one evening almost 9 years ago now. Maybe 8... I can never remember. It was massively powerful and nobody could deny what was going on. It wasn't until about a year later that I actually realized that I had the opportunity to speak in tongues too! I had no idea concerning anything about tongues until I heard a teaching randomly about it. I thought it sounded like a good idea and started praying in tongues right then.

There goes that theology.

And that's just my problem. Everyone's blasting on about theology while those who are uneducated are doing exactly what Jesus told us to do in the Bible, 2000 years ago. The way I look at it there was the tree of the knowledge of good and evil and then there was the tree of life. God told us not to eat from one.

The more and more I hear about knowledge these days the more I get a sick taste in my mouth. Not that it's a bad thing - it's just knowledge and revelation are two different things that look a heck of a lot similar to each other. Just one brings life and the other... Well... We saw what happened to Adam.

We must have more of His presence. This is Almighty God, King of the Universe, Creator of All who is spending time with us. He wrote the book - why not hang out with Him? If the author of your favorite book wanted to spend time with you would you say, "No, no... I have the book to know you by." or would you want to spend as much time as you could with that author so he could tell you the meaning behind all the stories and you could get the real deal straight for his mouth?

If it was about information and understanding why did Jesus constantly talk in parables to the very people He was sent to save? The only way they got it was through a revelation.

That's what I want. That's what I need.