All This Time...

I wish I could tell you more about what is happening. I don't know how to. I'm blown away by the ride sometimes. Right now I'm at that place. I never thought I'd be here.

Yet one thing remains the same. I must have more of God. Right now, in this moment I am again realizing how hungry I am for God. I must have more.

I'm blown away by this one song by Delirious right now. It's called "All This Time" off of Missions Flame or whatever their new album is called. There is a line that says:

"All this time, since the day that I was born, I've never known a time like this, I don't want to let you down...."

The nearness of God can never be near enough. Closer can always be. I want to feel Him infuse my very DNA. And I really mean that. I'm not saying it because it sounds cool. I honestly want to feel that. I want to know that He possesses every molecule, every atom, every electron. I want to feel Him take sheer joy and excitement that every tiny bit of me is totally His. My entire life is His, which seems like a big thing. And now... the smallest thing... one hydrogen atom... it's electron... that part of me... is His. He created it. He gave it to me. I'm all God's. I want to feel Him that close.

Jesus is just so real. Tomorrow I want Him to be more real. This next minute I want more reality. This next second I must possess more of the knowledge of God.

God, I don't know... I don't understand it... but I don't care! Bypass my mind and pour it all out on me. I must have more of you. Nothing else matters. I have so many desires, but know that beneath everything my greatest desire it YOU!! Is to fully and totally and utterly have all of you. I could care less if I could explain it first. Explainations mean nothing if I miss it. Bypass my walls, bypass my hurts, bypass everything that needs to be bypassed and come with everything you have! I MUST HAVE MORE!!!

I echo the words of John 14:8, "Lord, show us the Father, that is all we need....."

Can you feel Him? He's right there beside you....