Dreaming of a Dream

Let's see... day five of being 24. Days three through four were expectional, might I add.

I have to make this quick because I need to leave right away. I had this wild dream last night. Basically it was a dream that unfolded into my friends surprising me by showing up unexpectedly. These are my dearest friends from all over the world. They'd just show up and it was like one big elaborate surprise for me.

Sadly, this was one of those dreams that are so real that you honestly believe it is happening. I was so happy last night being with those that make my heart soar. Then the scene suddenly changed and I was in this RV with a bunch of people from Redding. It was really shocking to suddenly have the scene change like that. My friends Brian and Jenn Johnson were there and I had this sinking feeling come over me as I realized it wasn't real, but only a dream.

I turned to Brian and said, "This is a dream isn't it."

He simply nodded and looked a little sorry about it.

I sat down and looked at the ground for a little while and then looked up at everyone. I honestly wasn't ready to have this end. It just felt too good to have it end right then. I knew it was a dream and wasn't "real" but I just couldn't have it end. So I got up all my courage and said out loud, "I'm not ready for this dream to be over. I won't leave it yet." I knew perfectly well it was a dream, but I didn't want to leave. I couldn't bear to be teased like that again.

And the funny thing is the dream didn't end. I could feel it coming to a close and I'd just grit my teeth and say to the dream, "No. I don't want to leave. I won't let this dream be over yet." And I kept doing that and fought to remain in the dream.

Interesting, isn't it? I did finally wake up in the morning and I still had the same feeling of being so fulfilled and happy with finally spending quality time with the ones your heart longs to be with but can't. I don't really know what to think about it all, but it was a nice gift while it lasted.

I'm going to go to The Flood now and then leave a little early and hang out with Andrew. I've had to be creative for hang-out time with people so a little hacking and re-arranging has been in order. Day five of year 24 should turn out just fine.