Upheaveal

Did I spell that right?

If the above mentioned word is spelt correctly, that is currently what I am feeling. Complete and total upheaveal and basically no clue what to do or where to go next. But that is what I signed up for. To do something new that nobody has done before. Like Star Trek, only with Jesus as my warp drive......

That was possibly the most corny thing I have ever written in my life. Ever.

Moving on.

This last weekend was a really nice time. It was honestly a gift from God. The prayer team I have been serving with was officially dismantled. Thus ends one of the hardest seasons of my life. And I had it easy compared to a few others on the team. But it was so good. I learned so much through these last two years and I really see how God used a nasty situation and turned even that for good for those who could find it.

Then I got added blessing by spending a lot of time with my spiritual father, Dennis Wiedrick. He is an amazing man of God who travels internationally speaking as a very influential apostolic voice. And I mean apostolic, not one of those people who grabs a title to sound impressive - this man actually functions in that way. It's really neat to see and to be able to get such a close relationship with him.

My times with Dennis are always mind boggling. He has watched out for me very closely since 1999 so we got quite a history. I very much trust what he says. The bummer is now what he is saying is really hard and I have basically no idea how to move forward! Haha!! I laugh at myself because I always get into these situations. I'm not freaking out (well, I kind of am) but it's a good freak out. If you want to do great exploits for God sometimes that means you're going to have to do a bit more then walk around any old corner. There is this little thing called faith that at times is required when it comes to this relationship with God....

Time to count the cost once again and push all the chips to the middle of the table and gamble it all on God. I've been here before, but the stakes are getting higher. The thing I have been discovering is even when I push all my chips to the middle of the table that God wins every time anyway. But the strange thing is after He wins it all He gives it all back to me and says, "You got guts, boy. Now have all my chips."

Yikes.

If you think of it, please pray for me. I have a brand new slate. This happened once a few months ago, but now it's time to write on the slate. I have many things open to me that I'd love to share, but just won't right now. I need to know where to pull the trigger and where not to. My dreams and my destiny have never been this close and I need to figure out how to jump those barriers, or better yet to know that there is no barrier at all because it is through Jesus that all this is accomplished.

Oh yes, for any Eagle's Nest Ranch Summer people, it looks as if I will be there for the week of staff training! Woo!! I'm considering a couple more weeks after that. But we'll see.

And as for the Eagle's Nest YWAM Staff... I was there on Friday night... most of you weren't there. But all I have to say is you missed quite possibly the most unusual party ever thrown on planet earth. An "English As A Second Language 80's Forced Dance Party". That was just not normal no matter how you look at it.